Back on the Wagon

my first thought while entering again to this state of mind was:

f***k yeah... hurray...

but the figure does not spare us in the cold silvery reflection of a mirror.

so, here we go again... protein, fiber and so much exercise...

let's hope to one day be like this:

hehehehe... just kidding!

I just like to be healthy! yay!

this Pains me so Sweetly

my life.

my food.

have you ever realised that the most happy moments of your life were spent in front of a plate...?

in hidden, small restaurants with dim lights and exotic aromas flowing and dancing from every food platter, grabbing to the walls, and mixing into a characteristic odor aged by years and years on those very walls.

my life.

the anticipation rising, with bubbly laughter inside, excited with the gift of foresight;

tall and slender glasses cradling deep purple and ruby red of the best wine your money can buy, the shared happiness between the couples sitting in corner tables, and you upon entering, almost as if it was an acknowledgment from a fellow club member, ready to join the delights of food loving nights.

my food.

the sweet, almost pillow talk, soft conversations while waiting for the starters, and hearing the bottle pop and drip the smell of oak bark and berries, sipping romantically, almost flirty like, the wine chosen by it's loved name, as a child expected. the surprised aww's when the starters come and the sheer delight of that first inhalation. the silvery fork introducing a brew of tastes and combinations of flavors.

my life.

the loud laughter that eludes our bewildered mouth, and escapes trough the fingers, bracing our blushed face. the shine on your partners eyes, partaking in your brief loss of composure, while every bite of creamy, deliciousness piece of heaven called food dances inside your mouth.

near the end... we are filled with the most virginal glow of happiness and contentment...

...and ready to face the world once again...

my food.

my life.

~Sara Corpsie

 

 I am medicating myself with food.

sometimes I can stop myself... other times I can't.

I gained about 2kg during the last month and I can see I'll have to take extreme measures to end this binging trip. the answer is simple:

have some self control.

xoxo

DIY creepers ReVamp

today is not a good day.

but I'll make a post nonetheless...

I had these creepers for what I believe was an enormous amount of time, eight years if I'm not mistaken.

this was back when pinstripes were having all the hype. since that I really grew tired of the whole stripes fad and as my wardrobe changed, these puppies fell back.

*the neglected creeper*

the years were kind to them, taking into consideration the fact that I used to work twelve hour shifts on them...

so, for the revamping of the pretty boys (yes, mine are boys) I used:

- a permanent black ink marker (the type you use for writing on CDs)

- black shoe polish

- shining liquid for the shoe polish

- a polishing brush & sponge

I first started by cleaning the creepers of any dirt and dust with a dry cloth, the next step was to run the marker down the white pinstripes, and be very careful not to draw a very wide stroke and paint every bit of white. I also used it to cover up some scrapes from usage.

*with & without pinstripes*

as you see the progress already makes a big difference. 

next I gave it a vigorous scrub with the black shoe polish, and here is where you might get a bit lost:

the platform on these creepers is dented throughout, so if you go in with a sponge to get all the nooks and crannies, you'll never get it all and you've consumed a ridiculous amount of time on a half assed job.

my answer to that is to use a small and wide brush (much like a hair brush), put a lot of black shoe polish on it and scrub for your life.

then all you have to do is give it a good shine and clean the zipper parts of any shoe polish with a dry cloth.

*the finished product*

they look much better in real life, but this was a project done in the middle of an insomnia night, and I was still trying to work out my new camera...

hope you liked it.

<3

of Love and Dark and Cold

hello my dearies!

the "making of" from the "Second Nature" shoot is finally done.

 

it has actually been up now for a while on my youtube account, but time seems to ellude me, and I always forget to put it up here.

beg your pardon!

 

here it is:

 

 

I really hope you like it.

this was a very fun day and Zak was such a delight to work with.

I've said it and I say it again; what a wonderful photographer.

 

see you soon!

xoxo

It was a Molar most Foul...!

I haven't been feeling my best these last three weeks, well, my body at least. I had to go under the knife due to this pesky molar that insisted on growing beneath my jaw bone.

yes.

it's as creepy as it sounds.

my mouth is too small to accommodate all of my adult teeth, so my third molars are growing half outside and half under the jaw bone. because of this I had to have a "small" surgery to drill off a bit of jaw bone so that the dentist could get to the tooth to remove it.

 *the Afflicted appendix*

I experienced horrid pain afterwards, and the recovery time was prolonged due to the combined stupidity of some people (which shall remain unnamed) that confused my medication.

instead of taking antibiotics with anti inflammatory medicine, I was actually just on antibiotics and pain killers.

so the swelling became monumental as you may have figured by now...

the pain, non stopping, ever lasting, almost drove me to madness.

now... after three weeks, I can say I can do almost everything normally.

but I still feel some pain. it's bearable but it is still there.

*I call bloody murder on this one...*

so,

in the spirit of trying to get back to my every day life, step by step, I went out a did a little bit of shopping and got a pair of sweet fluffy slippers and this kitchen timer.

I call it the Evil Kitty.

now, time for updates:

*I also got a whole batch of stuff for my gel nails obsession, but I will do a proper post on that when I'm feeling better, it could be tomorrow or after that... let's take it slow.

*I have a KIKO makeup haul to do here and I'm considering in doing a video for that as well, but as I said I need a bit of time.

*I'm going to do a post on my Christmas presents and my personal purchases (I know, it's February but won't you love to know anyway?) 

*the making of video of the Zakahia photoshoot is finally done and it will be up this weekend, on Friday if we get lucky!

*I am about to start a new segment on this blog and on my Youtube channel called:

 "Black to Blonde: The Diaries"

where I talk about my personal journey to take out the black dye in my hair in a safe, wise way, and the transitions of the color pallet to a platinum blonde. I will also include all the information needed to do this in a SAFE way for your hair.

*for the Youtube channel and as always, also here, expect more Shoe Unboxing and reviews.

and I guess this is all for now...

gosh, you get sick and suddenly you get your schedule jammed.

  please bear with me and have some patience, 

or...

the Evil Kitty will get you.

and boy, is he evil.

xoxo

Furry Corpsie

yesterday I had a present expecting me on my email inbox..!

my beautiful lover has given me a present; my own Furry.

 *to get a commission done from my boyfriend please go to:*

http://lusoskav.deviantart.com/

we talked about it, and he finally found time to do mine.
he does this type of work and much more elaborated scenarios as commissioned by his clients.
and I can tell you, that he does everything you can come up with.
everything.

my cute little alter ego has elements of an arctic fox, an okapi and some goat/deer type animals.
so here's some inspiration:

the Okapi

 "The name "okapi" is a portmanteau of two Lese words, oka, a verb meaning to cut and kpi, a noun referring to the design made on Efé arrows by wrapping the arrow with bark so as to leave stripes when scorched by fire. The stripes on the legs of the okapi resemble these stripes on the arrow shafts. Lese legend says the okapi decorates itself with these stripes, adding to the okapi's great camouflage."
- Wikipedia

the Arctic fox

 "The arctic fox has a circumpolar range, meaning that it is found throughout the entire Arctic, including the outer edges of Greenland, Russia, Canada, Alaska, and Svalbard, as well as in Subarctic and alpine areas, such as Iceland and mainland alpine Scandinavia. The conservation status of the species is good, except for the Scandinavian mainland population. It is acutely endangered there, despite decades of legal protection from hunting and persecution. The total population estimate in all of Norway, Sweden and Finland is a mere 120 adult individuals."
-Wikipedia 

the deer alike




"The word "deer" was originally broad in meaning, but became more specific over time. In Middle English der (Old English dēor) meant a wild animal of any kind. This was as opposed to cattle, which then meant any sort of domestic livestock that was easy to collect and remove from the land, from the idea of personal-property ownership (rather than real estate property) and related to modern chattel (property) and capital.^[1] Cognates of Old English dēor in other dead Germanic languages have the general sense of "animal", such as Old High German tior, Old Norse djur or dȳr, Gothic dius, Old Saxon dier, and Old Frisian diar."
-Wikipedia
 
gorgeous animals, mixed with fantastical imagination... it can only go right. <3

Zakahia - the Final results!

no... it's not the "making of" yet...

that will possibly be up on youtube next week, for now I will leave you with a few photos from the received package from amazing photographer, Zak!

DISCLAIMER:

these are copyrighted images, belonging only to me (model) and the photographer Zakahia,

 so please do not steal them!

ask permission if you'd like to share them.

thank you...!

 

 I promise as soon as possible I will have the "making of" video of this session up on youtube, and I'll let you all know when. possibly next week, so... I'm excited.

Scrapbooks to be witty & hairclips to be pretty

DIY

don't you just love those little words together?

I used to be a very frustrated being, due to my inertia when I entered in procrastination. but currently I have discovered that there is indeed an active lady inside of me. this became a "thing" in a few months time... now, I can only try and hold myself back from trying to do things.

 (usually I'd want to do the most when I'm super busy, but now I am able to space out events and things)

Disclaimer:

there is no affiliation with the brands Living Dead Souls and Restyle.

my DIY work with their images is for personal use only.

 *Why, isn't that Toxic Boy...?*

I just looked at all the stuff I have a tendency to accumulate more easily (mainly flyers, magazines, pieces of papers that hold cutlery at a food place...) and I decided that my room needed yet another makeover.

 so all the little things glued to the walls and door need to go - to another place! - and I've been wanting to do a few scrapbooks in a long, long time.

*my Favorite one*

I'm just using little bits and bobs of stuff I've hoarded throughout the years...!

I even had the materials to produce these cute hair-clips, with ever watchful eyes, looking to every corner, protecting my little noggin. heehee 

 

"Top Dollar: Eyes see. One of the most important things I learned from my sister.

Gideon: Sister? She's supposed to be your sister?

Top Dollar: My father's daughter. That's right. What's the matter, you don't see the resemblance?"

- The Crow

my beautiful Pendulum was slightly altered to be used as a necklace, but it can still be used to talk to those curious little spirits...!

practicality means the world for this girl!

*the Price of Creation*

expect much more DIY stuff!

my busy hands love to give work to my already busy brain!

oh, by the way, I got the photos from the last shoot I made a post about. 

the making of and the photos will soon be up on my youtube channel!

cheers <3

 

the Folly times Came...

before the photoshoot I had to grievously watch what I was eating.

but after the photoshoot...?

well...

 *It's Munchies Time!!*

my lover took me to an amazing restaurant with several styles of Asian foods.

and this was only the Japanese area.

the place was incredible, really. it had a very real oriental feel to it, super calm and with the perfect marriage of the old Asia and modern decoration styles.

one of my favorite details was that the waiters and cooks were all in costume, I'm so sad I completely spaced out on taking a picture with them...

it certainly had a steady clientele, and mostly you could see were business men and women. and as every properly mentally developed person, they did not give us one single look of disdain.

and believe me... in my country that is seldom. 

I swear to you I ate so much my stomach engorged out of my ribs and I felt the happiness and glow of a pregnant woman...!

except I was pregnant with Asian food.

*Yummy things make my Belly smile* 

yes, and ice cream.

and wine too, actually.

what happened next?

this happened.

all over my body.

35 minutes of the hardest workout of my life.

and if you ask me if it was worth it, I'll have to say: Yes!

I had an amazing, romantic time with the person I love the most in my life, in this gorgeous restaurant with Asian mouthwatering delicacies.

I think I've come to the conclusion that you can really have your cake and eat it too.

you just have to workout after it.

see ya soon my dearies!

OOTD & MAKEUP - folly times coming!

 

*I feel Happy 'cause I'm in Love*

I felt very sad when I was about to put on some pretty eyelashes to go with this sweet look, when I realized I was out of lash glue... my heart sunk.

I almost never use false lashes on account of mine being of a decent length, but sometimes you really want your eyes to pop and the lashes are a great accessory for that.
the lips don't show much in this photo, but I went with a pastel, old pink as an homage to a 90's TV series called "Popular". I've been watching it with my love and it's a trip down memory lane, but also a huge source of inspiration.

 *Skeleton hands clips - Claire's / Transparent top with polka-dots - Stradivarius / Leather Jacket - gift from grampa / Skinny Jeans - (H&M) gift from Boyfriend / Faux Uggs - dollar store*

 forgive the weird angle, my boyfriend is still learning!

Love you dearest!

 I definitely went a bit on a danger area with the faux Uggs, seeing that no one with a full figure and/or short height should be using any of these type of shoes, but it worked in the end.

I just had to pair it with some good skinny jeans.

it shortens my height and gives me more weight, no doubt about it, but I believe I can dodge looking like a salami... 

the coat was not the best choice for this outfit... I was in the impression that it would give me structure, but alas, my shorter leather coat would've let the silhouette show.

this one is too boxy if you're going to use Uggs, once again I shortened myself.

a word of advise:

if you fall under the category expressed above, please, do not wear Uggs boots with two color striped pants or leggings.

I've tried it and it looks horrid, but if you had a positive experience, share!

much love my pretties!

P.S.

thank you to all the new subscribers on my youtube channel

you guys are swetties.

Zakahia Photoshoot - first steps

I met one of the most interesting photographers in Portugal; known by the name of Zakahia in her work but Zak for her friends.

I am truly excited with the flowers of our business relationship blooming.

we already have a next project to work on.

and as nervous as I am to do my part as a model the best I could, she really saw something in me she loved and thankfully I'll be having more work with this brilliant mind of artistic photography.

<3

  *My Tongue in Its Second Nature*

a little note on the subject:

this post will not contain the finished photos.

 (on the exception of the photo above, taken for a side project of Zak's, more on that later)

 but it will contain instead a little view behind the stage of doing a photoshoot, through the eyes of a model.

 nothing makes me more humble of my makeup knowledge when there's a professional closing in on me with one hand full of assorted brushes and sponges, and the other with so many different shades of the same color that you actually start thinking you're seeing double...

see what I mean...?

now, I confess I'm not very good in mixing colors, so it was actually very interesting to see the amount of colors she used on me and how little it appears on my camera.

*Do I look Sexy yet...?*

forgive my stare but we were really concentrated on our work.

Zak was concentrating on doing the makeup and I was calming myself for the big show and remembering my homework for this shoot.

oh yes my dears, in a shoot with a good photographer he will explain the concept to you and expect you to perform based on that.

Zak's shoot not only had a concept but it had even a story with depth as well.

 *Diamonds for Eyebrows, a true UCG*

as a novice in the modelling world, it was kind of a challenge to embody this other superior being and convey the sentiments she wanted for her creation.

I never thought I'd say this but...

I finally understand what Tyra Banks talks about in her show "America's next Top Model".

not that I'm comparing myself, of course.

but it is true when a photo is just pretty and when it is full of feeling and the model's eyes lock your attention.

*My gorgeous Talons, I didn't want to take them off!*

I always like to take a "cast" photo, but Zak does not appear in photos.

she firmly believes in her work to be known for itself, and not for her networking or promoting her face.

I still think she would make a beautiful model...

*one of the Thousand attempts for the Tongue photo*

you know what I have to say about all of this?

the important thing is that you love yourself and feel content with the place you're in.

it took me a very long while to feel the confidence to do something like modelling...

and let me tell you,

I have never regretted it.

I will never let fear stand in the way of my life again.

I know I can do certain things I put myself up to. it's true that somethings may take more effort and stamina, but gosh darn it, I will never stop doing it until I feel content with I have achieved.

and knowing me as I do, I will always continue.

up and away!

*Insert Goofy's laughter*

expect a "making of" video of this 7 hour production, with photos and footage. 

meanwhile you can check out my ModelMayhem account where I have a sample of my work.

just look to your right column.

much more to come,

see ya soon my darlings!

<3

No mirror Makeup Challenge -- oh my...

*Peek-a-Boo I see You*

Now...

this was an odyssey for sure.

I talk about a number of silly things (true to my form, of course) all amusingly wrapped up with pretty makeup poorly done. let us hope my "holy hell" face at the end will be able to do the trick.

I hope you enjoy watching this movie as much as I enjoyed making it.

have fun <3