of Love and Dark and Cold

hello my dearies!

the "making of" from the "Second Nature" shoot is finally done.

 

it has actually been up now for a while on my youtube account, but time seems to ellude me, and I always forget to put it up here.

beg your pardon!

 

here it is:

 

 

I really hope you like it.

this was a very fun day and Zak was such a delight to work with.

I've said it and I say it again; what a wonderful photographer.

 

see you soon!

xoxo

It was a Molar most Foul...!

I haven't been feeling my best these last three weeks, well, my body at least. I had to go under the knife due to this pesky molar that insisted on growing beneath my jaw bone.

yes.

it's as creepy as it sounds.

my mouth is too small to accommodate all of my adult teeth, so my third molars are growing half outside and half under the jaw bone. because of this I had to have a "small" surgery to drill off a bit of jaw bone so that the dentist could get to the tooth to remove it.

 *the Afflicted appendix*

I experienced horrid pain afterwards, and the recovery time was prolonged due to the combined stupidity of some people (which shall remain unnamed) that confused my medication.

instead of taking antibiotics with anti inflammatory medicine, I was actually just on antibiotics and pain killers.

so the swelling became monumental as you may have figured by now...

the pain, non stopping, ever lasting, almost drove me to madness.

now... after three weeks, I can say I can do almost everything normally.

but I still feel some pain. it's bearable but it is still there.

*I call bloody murder on this one...*

so,

in the spirit of trying to get back to my every day life, step by step, I went out a did a little bit of shopping and got a pair of sweet fluffy slippers and this kitchen timer.

I call it the Evil Kitty.

now, time for updates:

*I also got a whole batch of stuff for my gel nails obsession, but I will do a proper post on that when I'm feeling better, it could be tomorrow or after that... let's take it slow.

*I have a KIKO makeup haul to do here and I'm considering in doing a video for that as well, but as I said I need a bit of time.

*I'm going to do a post on my Christmas presents and my personal purchases (I know, it's February but won't you love to know anyway?) 

*the making of video of the Zakahia photoshoot is finally done and it will be up this weekend, on Friday if we get lucky!

*I am about to start a new segment on this blog and on my Youtube channel called:

 "Black to Blonde: The Diaries"

where I talk about my personal journey to take out the black dye in my hair in a safe, wise way, and the transitions of the color pallet to a platinum blonde. I will also include all the information needed to do this in a SAFE way for your hair.

*for the Youtube channel and as always, also here, expect more Shoe Unboxing and reviews.

and I guess this is all for now...

gosh, you get sick and suddenly you get your schedule jammed.

  please bear with me and have some patience, 

or...

the Evil Kitty will get you.

and boy, is he evil.

xoxo

Zakahia - the Final results!

no... it's not the "making of" yet...

that will possibly be up on youtube next week, for now I will leave you with a few photos from the received package from amazing photographer, Zak!

DISCLAIMER:

these are copyrighted images, belonging only to me (model) and the photographer Zakahia,

 so please do not steal them!

ask permission if you'd like to share them.

thank you...!

 

 I promise as soon as possible I will have the "making of" video of this session up on youtube, and I'll let you all know when. possibly next week, so... I'm excited.

Zakahia Photoshoot - first steps

I met one of the most interesting photographers in Portugal; known by the name of Zakahia in her work but Zak for her friends.

I am truly excited with the flowers of our business relationship blooming.

we already have a next project to work on.

and as nervous as I am to do my part as a model the best I could, she really saw something in me she loved and thankfully I'll be having more work with this brilliant mind of artistic photography.

<3

  *My Tongue in Its Second Nature*

a little note on the subject:

this post will not contain the finished photos.

 (on the exception of the photo above, taken for a side project of Zak's, more on that later)

 but it will contain instead a little view behind the stage of doing a photoshoot, through the eyes of a model.

 nothing makes me more humble of my makeup knowledge when there's a professional closing in on me with one hand full of assorted brushes and sponges, and the other with so many different shades of the same color that you actually start thinking you're seeing double...

see what I mean...?

now, I confess I'm not very good in mixing colors, so it was actually very interesting to see the amount of colors she used on me and how little it appears on my camera.

*Do I look Sexy yet...?*

forgive my stare but we were really concentrated on our work.

Zak was concentrating on doing the makeup and I was calming myself for the big show and remembering my homework for this shoot.

oh yes my dears, in a shoot with a good photographer he will explain the concept to you and expect you to perform based on that.

Zak's shoot not only had a concept but it had even a story with depth as well.

 *Diamonds for Eyebrows, a true UCG*

as a novice in the modelling world, it was kind of a challenge to embody this other superior being and convey the sentiments she wanted for her creation.

I never thought I'd say this but...

I finally understand what Tyra Banks talks about in her show "America's next Top Model".

not that I'm comparing myself, of course.

but it is true when a photo is just pretty and when it is full of feeling and the model's eyes lock your attention.

*My gorgeous Talons, I didn't want to take them off!*

I always like to take a "cast" photo, but Zak does not appear in photos.

she firmly believes in her work to be known for itself, and not for her networking or promoting her face.

I still think she would make a beautiful model...

*one of the Thousand attempts for the Tongue photo*

you know what I have to say about all of this?

the important thing is that you love yourself and feel content with the place you're in.

it took me a very long while to feel the confidence to do something like modelling...

and let me tell you,

I have never regretted it.

I will never let fear stand in the way of my life again.

I know I can do certain things I put myself up to. it's true that somethings may take more effort and stamina, but gosh darn it, I will never stop doing it until I feel content with I have achieved.

and knowing me as I do, I will always continue.

up and away!

*Insert Goofy's laughter*

expect a "making of" video of this 7 hour production, with photos and footage. 

meanwhile you can check out my ModelMayhem account where I have a sample of my work.

just look to your right column.

much more to come,

see ya soon my darlings!

<3