my Patience is thin... like my Stomach. Ah!

new video my precious!

it is a parody.

(BTW the video description clearly states that I had eaten my protein [white meat] before hand)

so, please spare me the comments on eating disorders because it's getting really old really fast.

so I don't like to be flabby, sue me.

now, it's supposed to be funny... sometimes we have to compromise a little in our life if we want to achieve certain goals, and this is me satirizing the fact that, yes, salad sometimes is a bitch to eat. 

I wish I could eat mac and cheese every day. really.

but I can't. I have to compromise that so I can feel good about my body.

and seriously, it's much easier to run up a flight of stairs!!

now, please... before you say I hate "fat" you should know that it is my firm believe that you should strive to feel good about yourself, and if a voluptuous figure is what makes you content, then my friend, you don't need to compromise a thing, because you are already the person you want to be!

and in the end, it is a matter of you being happy and loving yourself.

but if not... don't just stand in front of the screen looking at this, getting too offended, and munching down a whole bag of chips, while complaining about your weight.

personally, that is the worst for me.

so, without further a due...

the video!!

I hope everyone likes it and don't take it neither seriously or personally.

but you guys are cool, right?

aaah! I thought so...

see ya soon, I have a lovely post about a super romantic dinner, 

stay tuned!

<3

Back on the Wagon

my first thought while entering again to this state of mind was:

f***k yeah... hurray...

but the figure does not spare us in the cold silvery reflection of a mirror.

so, here we go again... protein, fiber and so much exercise...

let's hope to one day be like this:

hehehehe... just kidding!

I just like to be healthy! yay!

Zakahia Photoshoot - first steps

I met one of the most interesting photographers in Portugal; known by the name of Zakahia in her work but Zak for her friends.

I am truly excited with the flowers of our business relationship blooming.

we already have a next project to work on.

and as nervous as I am to do my part as a model the best I could, she really saw something in me she loved and thankfully I'll be having more work with this brilliant mind of artistic photography.

<3

  *My Tongue in Its Second Nature*

a little note on the subject:

this post will not contain the finished photos.

 (on the exception of the photo above, taken for a side project of Zak's, more on that later)

 but it will contain instead a little view behind the stage of doing a photoshoot, through the eyes of a model.

 nothing makes me more humble of my makeup knowledge when there's a professional closing in on me with one hand full of assorted brushes and sponges, and the other with so many different shades of the same color that you actually start thinking you're seeing double...

see what I mean...?

now, I confess I'm not very good in mixing colors, so it was actually very interesting to see the amount of colors she used on me and how little it appears on my camera.

*Do I look Sexy yet...?*

forgive my stare but we were really concentrated on our work.

Zak was concentrating on doing the makeup and I was calming myself for the big show and remembering my homework for this shoot.

oh yes my dears, in a shoot with a good photographer he will explain the concept to you and expect you to perform based on that.

Zak's shoot not only had a concept but it had even a story with depth as well.

 *Diamonds for Eyebrows, a true UCG*

as a novice in the modelling world, it was kind of a challenge to embody this other superior being and convey the sentiments she wanted for her creation.

I never thought I'd say this but...

I finally understand what Tyra Banks talks about in her show "America's next Top Model".

not that I'm comparing myself, of course.

but it is true when a photo is just pretty and when it is full of feeling and the model's eyes lock your attention.

*My gorgeous Talons, I didn't want to take them off!*

I always like to take a "cast" photo, but Zak does not appear in photos.

she firmly believes in her work to be known for itself, and not for her networking or promoting her face.

I still think she would make a beautiful model...

*one of the Thousand attempts for the Tongue photo*

you know what I have to say about all of this?

the important thing is that you love yourself and feel content with the place you're in.

it took me a very long while to feel the confidence to do something like modelling...

and let me tell you,

I have never regretted it.

I will never let fear stand in the way of my life again.

I know I can do certain things I put myself up to. it's true that somethings may take more effort and stamina, but gosh darn it, I will never stop doing it until I feel content with I have achieved.

and knowing me as I do, I will always continue.

up and away!

*Insert Goofy's laughter*

expect a "making of" video of this 7 hour production, with photos and footage. 

meanwhile you can check out my ModelMayhem account where I have a sample of my work.

just look to your right column.

much more to come,

see ya soon my darlings!

<3