have your Cake and Eat it

 *no dieting, Just exercise* 

this is not an easy post...

I feel I consumed so much time thinking about my weight and every little flaw in my body (or my head which is more likely) that for a period of time I was living my life more worried than really being living it.

even tho I felt happy looking into my reflection, a part of me was sad.

I convinced myself that, unfortunately, such sacrifice like passing up tasty carbons should be done in order for me to keep a slender figure.

but this could never last that long.

not for a person as myself that adores the simple pleasures of life;

food and drinks.

so, different measures had to be taken at once!

I decided to take a leap of faith and try to get back to my normal eating habits.

but with a different twist:

more exercise and more diversified.

and then suddenly I realised that, not only was I happier on my everyday routine but my night time binging was naturally cut down to almost 90% 

and the best thing about it is that I really saw a weight loss of 1 pound, maintained and actually got my curves firmer, and all I had to do was to be less sedentary.

you see,

the trouble with diets is that you are basically denying your body food that your brain perceives as a pleasurable activity, and therefore it is much harder to maintain control over cravings and to keep an overall high level of satisfaction.

people do see results when dieting and exercising, of course, the trouble is when people reach their weight goal and think "I believe I can afford myself to live/eat normally again!" and they fall into old eating habits, which will automatically result in a complete weight gain of the previous number and sometimes even more.

so you're in fact sabotaging yourself.

(unless you're able to diet for the rest of your life... but I don't think most people can do that)

the best thing to do is to have healthy eating habits, with allowance for salads and cheeseburgers, the trick is to have variety and teach your body to work out for longer periods of time and with as many different styles of exercise as possible.

your body will burn calories for hours and hours after the workout, and with more exercise your metabolism will get used to run on a faster mode.

 thus being able to consume more calories and burning more calories.

and that is it.

you can see for yourself my results :)

disclaimer:

I am not saying that everyone should give up on dieting, I'm just saying that for many people there's no real need to get so aggressive on calorie fighting. 

 

my Patience is thin... like my Stomach. Ah!

new video my precious!

it is a parody.

(BTW the video description clearly states that I had eaten my protein [white meat] before hand)

so, please spare me the comments on eating disorders because it's getting really old really fast.

so I don't like to be flabby, sue me.

now, it's supposed to be funny... sometimes we have to compromise a little in our life if we want to achieve certain goals, and this is me satirizing the fact that, yes, salad sometimes is a bitch to eat. 

I wish I could eat mac and cheese every day. really.

but I can't. I have to compromise that so I can feel good about my body.

and seriously, it's much easier to run up a flight of stairs!!

now, please... before you say I hate "fat" you should know that it is my firm believe that you should strive to feel good about yourself, and if a voluptuous figure is what makes you content, then my friend, you don't need to compromise a thing, because you are already the person you want to be!

and in the end, it is a matter of you being happy and loving yourself.

but if not... don't just stand in front of the screen looking at this, getting too offended, and munching down a whole bag of chips, while complaining about your weight.

personally, that is the worst for me.

so, without further a due...

the video!!

I hope everyone likes it and don't take it neither seriously or personally.

but you guys are cool, right?

aaah! I thought so...

see ya soon, I have a lovely post about a super romantic dinner, 

stay tuned!

<3

Back on the Wagon

my first thought while entering again to this state of mind was:

f***k yeah... hurray...

but the figure does not spare us in the cold silvery reflection of a mirror.

so, here we go again... protein, fiber and so much exercise...

let's hope to one day be like this:

hehehehe... just kidding!

I just like to be healthy! yay!

this Pains me so Sweetly

my life.

my food.

have you ever realised that the most happy moments of your life were spent in front of a plate...?

in hidden, small restaurants with dim lights and exotic aromas flowing and dancing from every food platter, grabbing to the walls, and mixing into a characteristic odor aged by years and years on those very walls.

my life.

the anticipation rising, with bubbly laughter inside, excited with the gift of foresight;

tall and slender glasses cradling deep purple and ruby red of the best wine your money can buy, the shared happiness between the couples sitting in corner tables, and you upon entering, almost as if it was an acknowledgment from a fellow club member, ready to join the delights of food loving nights.

my food.

the sweet, almost pillow talk, soft conversations while waiting for the starters, and hearing the bottle pop and drip the smell of oak bark and berries, sipping romantically, almost flirty like, the wine chosen by it's loved name, as a child expected. the surprised aww's when the starters come and the sheer delight of that first inhalation. the silvery fork introducing a brew of tastes and combinations of flavors.

my life.

the loud laughter that eludes our bewildered mouth, and escapes trough the fingers, bracing our blushed face. the shine on your partners eyes, partaking in your brief loss of composure, while every bite of creamy, deliciousness piece of heaven called food dances inside your mouth.

near the end... we are filled with the most virginal glow of happiness and contentment...

...and ready to face the world once again...

my food.

my life.

~Sara Corpsie

 

 I am medicating myself with food.

sometimes I can stop myself... other times I can't.

I gained about 2kg during the last month and I can see I'll have to take extreme measures to end this binging trip. the answer is simple:

have some self control.

xoxo

of Love and Dark and Cold

hello my dearies!

the "making of" from the "Second Nature" shoot is finally done.

 

it has actually been up now for a while on my youtube account, but time seems to ellude me, and I always forget to put it up here.

beg your pardon!

 

here it is:

 

 

I really hope you like it.

this was a very fun day and Zak was such a delight to work with.

I've said it and I say it again; what a wonderful photographer.

 

see you soon!

xoxo

the Folly times Came...

before the photoshoot I had to grievously watch what I was eating.

but after the photoshoot...?

well...

 *It's Munchies Time!!*

my lover took me to an amazing restaurant with several styles of Asian foods.

and this was only the Japanese area.

the place was incredible, really. it had a very real oriental feel to it, super calm and with the perfect marriage of the old Asia and modern decoration styles.

one of my favorite details was that the waiters and cooks were all in costume, I'm so sad I completely spaced out on taking a picture with them...

it certainly had a steady clientele, and mostly you could see were business men and women. and as every properly mentally developed person, they did not give us one single look of disdain.

and believe me... in my country that is seldom. 

I swear to you I ate so much my stomach engorged out of my ribs and I felt the happiness and glow of a pregnant woman...!

except I was pregnant with Asian food.

*Yummy things make my Belly smile* 

yes, and ice cream.

and wine too, actually.

what happened next?

this happened.

all over my body.

35 minutes of the hardest workout of my life.

and if you ask me if it was worth it, I'll have to say: Yes!

I had an amazing, romantic time with the person I love the most in my life, in this gorgeous restaurant with Asian mouthwatering delicacies.

I think I've come to the conclusion that you can really have your cake and eat it too.

you just have to workout after it.

see ya soon my dearies!

Remember the year Past...

It is now a quarter past 6 a.m. and my sleepy eyes are having trouble keeping closed.

so what did I decide? 

to take a trip down memory lane with this past year...

 and try and find some resolutions for this brand new year. we all know new year's resolutions are usually made before the end of the year, but what's important is that it comes at a right time for you.

in no particular order:

let us take a peek at 2012...!

*Skav, Pookie and Me at our University campus*

2012 was my second semester of my first year of university. I felt I was finally doing something very productive and it really opened doors for other wonderful aspects of life like having new experiences and making friends, as you can see!

these two made me laugh throughout the year, still missing some very important people here...

*Me, Suspy and Anna at Piccadilly Circus *

crossed a wish on my bucket list: visit England!

while I was there I did much "bed hopping" on my girlfriends' houses. first at my suspy uncle's house in Kingston, then in London with Suspy's friend Anna, after that in Peterborough at my friend Maria's boyfriend shared house, then back to Kingston.

uff.

I had the enhanced opportunity to visit England with people that were or lived there, therefore I'm quite secure of myself that I saw a few things for someone that was just there for 11 days...

   *Mother's idea of Gothic Cakes, still Adorable*

Turned 24... feels more like 104.

still, it was a nice age. which I am almost about to lose. 

I thought I had 6 months to go. what happened is that this count was from 3 months ago...

 *They're going to rip my face off, I know it*

Went to the Lisbon Zoo for the second time in my life since my childhood, it was a joyous day, I assure you. my dear suspy accompanied me, as she could no longer listen to my incessant rants on wanting to see a real life Okapi. my most adored animal in the African wild.

sadly because it was very early in the year the okapis had to be kept inside, which sort of defeated the whole purpose of going but I had a tremendous time!
by the way, this was a real conversation between the guy doing the bird show and me:
 bird guy: "do you guys know how to tell the difference between a girl bird and a boy bird?"
me: "THE COCK??"
bird guy: "errr... no. the bicks."
there were children present. yet another proud moment for Corpsie...

      *hmmm... wine from a Box never tasted So good*

Had my very first experience eating in a clandestine Chinese restaurant. this place seemed all the rage by the way people were talking about it, but it proved to be quite mediocre to be honest.

the "creme de la creme" was the dish we ordered: chicken chop-suey with vegetables and almonds.

they gave us peanuts and peppers.

we stared at each other with an incomprehensible look on our eyes, holding these plastic cups, surrounded by hipsters with a "bad attitude" because they are so "edgy"  breaking the law with forks.

it was worth it just for the laugh of it.

*oh mee gosh... I looked so chubby. must do a before and after post!*

Visited the birthplace of Portugal; Guimarães.

I went with my dearest love, Skav and two friends we made in the Vagos Open Air metal festival. we actually went there not also to see the sights and breathtaking views (as you can see) but also to see other friends we made at that same festival. with was and amazing time and I feel so blessed to have met incredible people like these.

*First day of Vagos Open Air*

went to my second Vagos festival, it was even better than the first, and I'm not just talking about the amazing company I had, it was everything.

this festival will live on in my heart as long as I live.

no matter what, every year this will be a constant in my life, to see old friends and make news, to listen to the amazing bands and headbang the living lights out of my brain.

I love everyone there.

*Sashimi is Good for You*

was finally able to put a stop to my self indulgence and started exercising and started setting some income aside for nutrition appointments. when I arrived there I weighed close to 59kgs.

now I have 54kgs.

the best advise I can give to anyone wanting to lose weight is:

you MUST really want it. 

*started Dating my best friend of 9 months, Skav*

he was and still is my best boy friend.

I love him dearly, and although we sometimes head-bump often, we soon remember one another that the love is always there.

I love to love you Odin Love.

he likes it when I repeat one word incessantly.

*Davey Jones & Sweetpea's 1st litter* 

my beautiful guinea pigs had their first babies, and they came out perfect. all of them found loving houses through a very kind lady that owns a pet store (animal friendly, against puppy mills and that sort of nonsense). she gave me a huge bag of high end food as a token of her appreciation.

*Prom King & Queen and they're assassinated actress*

had an awful good time at a Halloween costume party, my beloved and I went as prom king and queen. I spent hours it seemed on the makeup.

turns out I was only very drunk.

and of course, hanging around with my dear friends...

these were the highlights I think.

I'll have to make a post on funny pictures just because I've been looking for them, so many memories one can easily forget when you're as brain damage as me.

*Sigh*