upDate & romanTic views...

long time no see, am I right?

after a troublesome, nerve racking computer issues, I just decided to make my post on another computer until my main one is off its blues...

 

so, much has happened!

I turned 25, and had a couple of lovely parties, I went trift shopping, had romantic dinners with my sweetest, saw expositions, and changed dramatically my hair color.

now the trouble is:

how to put you guys up to date with all of this?

 

I'm foreseeing an intense blogging spree...

wich is also a good change of air, since I've been studying like crazy these last days (and still am) so, I guess these blogging sprees will be my coffee break from the horrors of spanish book's analisis, fonetics & morphology projects, and syntaxe tests...!

 

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let us be as chronologically has we can, so... my valentines dinner with my dearest:

 

because we are poor translation students we often work out the best deals possible, and for our romantic dinner we bought a voucher especially for the occasion, wich allowed us to enjoy a really expensive dinner for about 12€ each, drinks not included.

 

 

we went to a quaint little restaurant that served the best portuguese delicacies and I just fell in love with place, the decor and dimmed lighting...

 

 

these were the starters:

boiled quail eggs, raw cod fish with chikpea, octopus salad, goat cheese in olive oil, dry-cured black boar ham, cow cheese slices, black olives, and bread from Alentejo (portuguese region)

 

kind of makes me proud of being portuguese when I look back at these delicious dishes.

at least we have good food.

carrying on...

 

 

 this was part of our main course:

pataniscas de bacalhau (deep fried battered cod fish), peixinhos da horta (deep fried battered bell peppers), sauteed mushrooms, and an assortment of farinheiras (potuguese smoked sausage) and choriços (portuguese pork sausage, fermented or grilled).

 

to more on these delicious foods, wikipedia has a fair to decent descriptions available.

 

 

 after that we went to my dearest's house where we had more wine, with ice cream and watched some horror movies.

the perfect romantic evening.

 

I know this is extremely late but...

happy valentines day to all the ghouls out here!

 

xoxo

 

 

have your Cake and Eat it

 *no dieting, Just exercise* 

this is not an easy post...

I feel I consumed so much time thinking about my weight and every little flaw in my body (or my head which is more likely) that for a period of time I was living my life more worried than really being living it.

even tho I felt happy looking into my reflection, a part of me was sad.

I convinced myself that, unfortunately, such sacrifice like passing up tasty carbons should be done in order for me to keep a slender figure.

but this could never last that long.

not for a person as myself that adores the simple pleasures of life;

food and drinks.

so, different measures had to be taken at once!

I decided to take a leap of faith and try to get back to my normal eating habits.

but with a different twist:

more exercise and more diversified.

and then suddenly I realised that, not only was I happier on my everyday routine but my night time binging was naturally cut down to almost 90% 

and the best thing about it is that I really saw a weight loss of 1 pound, maintained and actually got my curves firmer, and all I had to do was to be less sedentary.

you see,

the trouble with diets is that you are basically denying your body food that your brain perceives as a pleasurable activity, and therefore it is much harder to maintain control over cravings and to keep an overall high level of satisfaction.

people do see results when dieting and exercising, of course, the trouble is when people reach their weight goal and think "I believe I can afford myself to live/eat normally again!" and they fall into old eating habits, which will automatically result in a complete weight gain of the previous number and sometimes even more.

so you're in fact sabotaging yourself.

(unless you're able to diet for the rest of your life... but I don't think most people can do that)

the best thing to do is to have healthy eating habits, with allowance for salads and cheeseburgers, the trick is to have variety and teach your body to work out for longer periods of time and with as many different styles of exercise as possible.

your body will burn calories for hours and hours after the workout, and with more exercise your metabolism will get used to run on a faster mode.

 thus being able to consume more calories and burning more calories.

and that is it.

you can see for yourself my results :)

disclaimer:

I am not saying that everyone should give up on dieting, I'm just saying that for many people there's no real need to get so aggressive on calorie fighting. 

 

time Eludes me Sometimes...

it's been quite a while, am I right?

so many things happen and suddenly we find ourselves miles away from the mundane normal things we used to do. and then it happens...

your normal every day rituals have become different.

 

*England trip 2012*

 

I could say more or less this situation happened to me. 

I haven't been keeping up with my youtube videos and have been barely writing here... 

 

I found myself occupied with getting my college average to a more than decent positive towards getting a scholarship.

that and... I went through a period in my life where I just couldn't bring myself to be in front of the computer.

I wanted trees waving in the wind and the smell of wet grass. 

expect a more interesting post very soon.

oh, and I'll be posting a special video on my youtube account dedicated to my best friend living all the way in Österreich.

xoxo

my Patience is thin... like my Stomach. Ah!

new video my precious!

it is a parody.

(BTW the video description clearly states that I had eaten my protein [white meat] before hand)

so, please spare me the comments on eating disorders because it's getting really old really fast.

so I don't like to be flabby, sue me.

now, it's supposed to be funny... sometimes we have to compromise a little in our life if we want to achieve certain goals, and this is me satirizing the fact that, yes, salad sometimes is a bitch to eat. 

I wish I could eat mac and cheese every day. really.

but I can't. I have to compromise that so I can feel good about my body.

and seriously, it's much easier to run up a flight of stairs!!

now, please... before you say I hate "fat" you should know that it is my firm believe that you should strive to feel good about yourself, and if a voluptuous figure is what makes you content, then my friend, you don't need to compromise a thing, because you are already the person you want to be!

and in the end, it is a matter of you being happy and loving yourself.

but if not... don't just stand in front of the screen looking at this, getting too offended, and munching down a whole bag of chips, while complaining about your weight.

personally, that is the worst for me.

so, without further a due...

the video!!

I hope everyone likes it and don't take it neither seriously or personally.

but you guys are cool, right?

aaah! I thought so...

see ya soon, I have a lovely post about a super romantic dinner, 

stay tuned!

<3

special Thanks and special Books

oh my... 

I really need to make a new video for my youtube channel.

to all the new subscribers I'd like to give a BIG thank you, for the kind words and happy thoughts, you guys know I'm always here to give you an answer for your questions (it might take a while, but I'll do it) and be sure that more videos are coming!

so... THANKS, YOU GUYS ROCK!

and now... books!

 *I know, my face shows my tiredness...*

"Ritos e Mistérios Secretos do Wicca" it's a book that shows the wicca neo pagan religion in an historical and anthropological view, with an introduction to the rites, philosophy and such. it's a very interesting book actually.

*I think this one is self explanatory heehee*

my boyfriend is a very intellectual man trapped in the body of a drunkard.

just kidding!

we just love booze and books.

Back on the Wagon

my first thought while entering again to this state of mind was:

f***k yeah... hurray...

but the figure does not spare us in the cold silvery reflection of a mirror.

so, here we go again... protein, fiber and so much exercise...

let's hope to one day be like this:

hehehehe... just kidding!

I just like to be healthy! yay!

this Pains me so Sweetly

my life.

my food.

have you ever realised that the most happy moments of your life were spent in front of a plate...?

in hidden, small restaurants with dim lights and exotic aromas flowing and dancing from every food platter, grabbing to the walls, and mixing into a characteristic odor aged by years and years on those very walls.

my life.

the anticipation rising, with bubbly laughter inside, excited with the gift of foresight;

tall and slender glasses cradling deep purple and ruby red of the best wine your money can buy, the shared happiness between the couples sitting in corner tables, and you upon entering, almost as if it was an acknowledgment from a fellow club member, ready to join the delights of food loving nights.

my food.

the sweet, almost pillow talk, soft conversations while waiting for the starters, and hearing the bottle pop and drip the smell of oak bark and berries, sipping romantically, almost flirty like, the wine chosen by it's loved name, as a child expected. the surprised aww's when the starters come and the sheer delight of that first inhalation. the silvery fork introducing a brew of tastes and combinations of flavors.

my life.

the loud laughter that eludes our bewildered mouth, and escapes trough the fingers, bracing our blushed face. the shine on your partners eyes, partaking in your brief loss of composure, while every bite of creamy, deliciousness piece of heaven called food dances inside your mouth.

near the end... we are filled with the most virginal glow of happiness and contentment...

...and ready to face the world once again...

my food.

my life.

~Sara Corpsie

 

 I am medicating myself with food.

sometimes I can stop myself... other times I can't.

I gained about 2kg during the last month and I can see I'll have to take extreme measures to end this binging trip. the answer is simple:

have some self control.

xoxo

DIY creepers ReVamp

today is not a good day.

but I'll make a post nonetheless...

I had these creepers for what I believe was an enormous amount of time, eight years if I'm not mistaken.

this was back when pinstripes were having all the hype. since that I really grew tired of the whole stripes fad and as my wardrobe changed, these puppies fell back.

*the neglected creeper*

the years were kind to them, taking into consideration the fact that I used to work twelve hour shifts on them...

so, for the revamping of the pretty boys (yes, mine are boys) I used:

- a permanent black ink marker (the type you use for writing on CDs)

- black shoe polish

- shining liquid for the shoe polish

- a polishing brush & sponge

I first started by cleaning the creepers of any dirt and dust with a dry cloth, the next step was to run the marker down the white pinstripes, and be very careful not to draw a very wide stroke and paint every bit of white. I also used it to cover up some scrapes from usage.

*with & without pinstripes*

as you see the progress already makes a big difference. 

next I gave it a vigorous scrub with the black shoe polish, and here is where you might get a bit lost:

the platform on these creepers is dented throughout, so if you go in with a sponge to get all the nooks and crannies, you'll never get it all and you've consumed a ridiculous amount of time on a half assed job.

my answer to that is to use a small and wide brush (much like a hair brush), put a lot of black shoe polish on it and scrub for your life.

then all you have to do is give it a good shine and clean the zipper parts of any shoe polish with a dry cloth.

*the finished product*

they look much better in real life, but this was a project done in the middle of an insomnia night, and I was still trying to work out my new camera...

hope you liked it.

<3

of Love and Dark and Cold

hello my dearies!

the "making of" from the "Second Nature" shoot is finally done.

 

it has actually been up now for a while on my youtube account, but time seems to ellude me, and I always forget to put it up here.

beg your pardon!

 

here it is:

 

 

I really hope you like it.

this was a very fun day and Zak was such a delight to work with.

I've said it and I say it again; what a wonderful photographer.

 

see you soon!

xoxo

It was a Molar most Foul...!

I haven't been feeling my best these last three weeks, well, my body at least. I had to go under the knife due to this pesky molar that insisted on growing beneath my jaw bone.

yes.

it's as creepy as it sounds.

my mouth is too small to accommodate all of my adult teeth, so my third molars are growing half outside and half under the jaw bone. because of this I had to have a "small" surgery to drill off a bit of jaw bone so that the dentist could get to the tooth to remove it.

 *the Afflicted appendix*

I experienced horrid pain afterwards, and the recovery time was prolonged due to the combined stupidity of some people (which shall remain unnamed) that confused my medication.

instead of taking antibiotics with anti inflammatory medicine, I was actually just on antibiotics and pain killers.

so the swelling became monumental as you may have figured by now...

the pain, non stopping, ever lasting, almost drove me to madness.

now... after three weeks, I can say I can do almost everything normally.

but I still feel some pain. it's bearable but it is still there.

*I call bloody murder on this one...*

so,

in the spirit of trying to get back to my every day life, step by step, I went out a did a little bit of shopping and got a pair of sweet fluffy slippers and this kitchen timer.

I call it the Evil Kitty.

now, time for updates:

*I also got a whole batch of stuff for my gel nails obsession, but I will do a proper post on that when I'm feeling better, it could be tomorrow or after that... let's take it slow.

*I have a KIKO makeup haul to do here and I'm considering in doing a video for that as well, but as I said I need a bit of time.

*I'm going to do a post on my Christmas presents and my personal purchases (I know, it's February but won't you love to know anyway?) 

*the making of video of the Zakahia photoshoot is finally done and it will be up this weekend, on Friday if we get lucky!

*I am about to start a new segment on this blog and on my Youtube channel called:

 "Black to Blonde: The Diaries"

where I talk about my personal journey to take out the black dye in my hair in a safe, wise way, and the transitions of the color pallet to a platinum blonde. I will also include all the information needed to do this in a SAFE way for your hair.

*for the Youtube channel and as always, also here, expect more Shoe Unboxing and reviews.

and I guess this is all for now...

gosh, you get sick and suddenly you get your schedule jammed.

  please bear with me and have some patience, 

or...

the Evil Kitty will get you.

and boy, is he evil.

xoxo

Dressed up in the Hall of the Slain

Last saturday me and my friends went on a trip to the very belly of Asgard, deep inside the mist parting the worlds, to the Hall of the Slain, Valhöll.

 

this was my makeup for the night...

 

 

I tried to make a more polished look by using a soft colored lipstick from KIKO so that the lips would not overpower the eyes, and on this particular look I really wanted to avoid the heaviness of two focus points on my face.

 

the little dots were made just to add a touch of medieval feel to it, the type of face painting one would do if belonging to the barbarie.

the funny thing is that I also use these dots when making more futuristic makeup, but somehow since I didn't go crazy with it I think it served its porpuse.

 

I avoided the eyeliner because I wanted to stress the ethereal feel of the makeup and still be able to pull off medium/long lashes. I also used and abused of shimmering white but my camera had a bit of trouble picking it up...

 

 the black eyeshadow is also shimmering, and it's from KIKO and it was applied solely on the hood of the eye and corners, streching to the inner eye , my eyebrow pencil is from AVON and again, these were made in a rather natural shape and look, to perpetuate the medieval feel.

 

this was the best photo I have from the outfit

 

*Lace shirt - Flea Market / Satyricon T-shirt - Vagos Open Air Festival / Underbust Corset - Dracula Clothing (Second hand) / Skinny Jeans - present from BF / Transformer 800 Demonia Boots - Second hand / Beer Pint - Present from father Odin*

 

I'm not very happy with this photo... alas, this was said outfit.

I went out on a limb by using this corset since I still feel a bit chubby, and if you're going to use any type of shiny material, such as PVC, then I advice your silluette to be perfect, otherwise you might realise that the shine of your clothing is reflecting an exaggerated image of you.

and you don't want to fight your wardrobe.

 

the pairing of the Satyricon t-shirt with the lace on the inside was not a very happy one when the light hits them... but I must say for a night out these two little pieces went perfect like toast and tea.

 

not a flattering photo by all means... but you get the gist of it.

 

we had a very amazing, metal filled night.

I'll leave you with some precious captions of Valhalla...

 

*Me & my Dearest*

 

a couple that headbangs together, stays together...!

 

*Me & my Sweetest sister, Suspy*

 

our sexy photographer was very tipsy by now, so all photos were a bit on the funny side.

gosh darn it, I love that girl.

 

*my friend played the Misty Mountains Cold*

 

we destroyed that place... we basically stormed that night club and owned the dance floor.

not to just say that it was a friend of ours that was the dj for the night. and we even made a couple of new friends, so the All Father Odin was more than benevolent to have graced us with such an amazing night.

 

see you soon!

 

 

 



Furry Corpsie

yesterday I had a present expecting me on my email inbox..!

my beautiful lover has given me a present; my own Furry.

 *to get a commission done from my boyfriend please go to:*

http://lusoskav.deviantart.com/

we talked about it, and he finally found time to do mine.
he does this type of work and much more elaborated scenarios as commissioned by his clients.
and I can tell you, that he does everything you can come up with.
everything.

my cute little alter ego has elements of an arctic fox, an okapi and some goat/deer type animals.
so here's some inspiration:

the Okapi

 "The name "okapi" is a portmanteau of two Lese words, oka, a verb meaning to cut and kpi, a noun referring to the design made on Efé arrows by wrapping the arrow with bark so as to leave stripes when scorched by fire. The stripes on the legs of the okapi resemble these stripes on the arrow shafts. Lese legend says the okapi decorates itself with these stripes, adding to the okapi's great camouflage."
- Wikipedia

the Arctic fox

 "The arctic fox has a circumpolar range, meaning that it is found throughout the entire Arctic, including the outer edges of Greenland, Russia, Canada, Alaska, and Svalbard, as well as in Subarctic and alpine areas, such as Iceland and mainland alpine Scandinavia. The conservation status of the species is good, except for the Scandinavian mainland population. It is acutely endangered there, despite decades of legal protection from hunting and persecution. The total population estimate in all of Norway, Sweden and Finland is a mere 120 adult individuals."
-Wikipedia 

the deer alike




"The word "deer" was originally broad in meaning, but became more specific over time. In Middle English der (Old English dēor) meant a wild animal of any kind. This was as opposed to cattle, which then meant any sort of domestic livestock that was easy to collect and remove from the land, from the idea of personal-property ownership (rather than real estate property) and related to modern chattel (property) and capital.^[1] Cognates of Old English dēor in other dead Germanic languages have the general sense of "animal", such as Old High German tior, Old Norse djur or dȳr, Gothic dius, Old Saxon dier, and Old Frisian diar."
-Wikipedia
 
gorgeous animals, mixed with fantastical imagination... it can only go right. <3

Zakahia - the Final results!

no... it's not the "making of" yet...

that will possibly be up on youtube next week, for now I will leave you with a few photos from the received package from amazing photographer, Zak!

DISCLAIMER:

these are copyrighted images, belonging only to me (model) and the photographer Zakahia,

 so please do not steal them!

ask permission if you'd like to share them.

thank you...!

 

 I promise as soon as possible I will have the "making of" video of this session up on youtube, and I'll let you all know when. possibly next week, so... I'm excited.

Far over the Misty Mountains Cold...

this happened a bit before Yule, but here it is:

me and my Skav went to the early screening of  "The Hobbit" with some of our friends.

this movie was so touching, I could barely hold the tears.

it was just filled with small little details that would go unnoticed unless you actually read the book, or even the official comic book. so maybe in that sense, not everyone will understand why somethings are said.

rest assure that it won't stop you from understanding the plot.

it just means you won't be in on the private jokes and meanings.

I'm a bit of a book snob, so I kind of liked that the people involved in the making of this movie did it this particular way.

it makes you appreciate reading the book.

To dungeons deep and caverns old

we must away ere break of day

to seek the pale enchanted gold

The dwarves of yore made mighty spells

while hammers fell like ringing bells

in places deep, where dark things sleep

in hollow halls beneath the fells

For ancient king and elvish lord

there many a gleaming golden hoard

they shaped and wrought, and light they caught

to hide in gems on hilt of sword

On silver necklaces they strung

the flowering stars, on crowns they hung

the dragon-fire, in twisted wire

they meshed the light of moon and sun

Far over the misty mountains cold

to dungeons deep and caverns old

we must away, ere break of day 

to claim our long forgotten gold

(...)

see you soon <3

OOTD and DIY proactive thinking!

I came to my darling's house for us to get ready for New Year's Eve, which we are going to have here due to the practicality of it.

 and also because this year (and the next) we are committed to spend much less money in all sorts of things so we can afford more quality time instead of just having "time" together.

 *Fluffy Blouse - H&M / Underneath Blouse - Flea Market / Veggie Leather Shorts - Chinese Store/ Demonia Transformer 800 - Second Hand / Pentagram Ring - Androm / Alchemy Gothic Undead Coffin Ring - Second Hand / Mjölnir necklace - Gift from Bf*

and I will not lie.

I really want to afford some things that go beyond the "really need" factor.

for instances, I love to have gel nails. 

(it is my understanding that in the USA and in the UK people use more acrylic nails.)

but I cannot afford the ridiculous prices for a well done job.

I went a couple of times to a more affordable place and the job was so badly done that the nails started falling off after two days.

So I decided to start making my own!

impossible you say? why, no my dear.

I did a great deal of research on the subject and watched an insane amount of Youtube videos, weeded out the nonsense and superficial and in two months time I had bought all the necessary equipment for nail galore manufacturing. now remember, this takes a bit of effort from your part.

but as you can see, the results were divine:

I will be sure to make a post so you can see my materials.

also, you need to be smart and think which materials are best to be bought at a high end store and which ones you can get away with going to the chinese store (or dolar store).

this was my first time only and I'm in love with the results.

also, I believe I will disclose how much each item cost me and the differences in price ranges, all you'll need to know for nail galore.

there will also be a video, so I'm sure I'll cover all aspects of this DIY project, but any questions just ask away! : >

*My Darling Skav always feeding my Belly*

See you soon my dearies <3